hillygirl

Bored at home

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 15:21:36 GMT

I haven't been up to much since my last post, I am mostly on myspace, but I check my LJ still because I really don't have anything better to do. Once I am done with my school work I just kind of hang out. I do housework, but there is only so much you can do to clean up after two people and two dogs. Anyways, we have a puppy named Copper and Brady got him for me to try to fill a void, but it is not the same as a baby. We will be getting reviewed for foster parenting soon I hope. I think I would rather adopt a baby, so if you know anyone that is going to have a baby and would like to put it up for adoption please let me know. I also would like to go to the doctor and see if their is anything we can do to have our own, which I doubt there is, but oh well it is worth a try. So that is all that is going on with me and I hope that everything is going well with all of you, keep in touch!

Love, Hillary

Good bye and Good Luck.

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 21:42:53 GMT

I realized today that I have no reason to keep myspace, xanga, livejournal or facebook. This will be my last blog...In a day I will be deleting all of my accounts. If you want to contact me (I am sure it doesn't matter) you may leave me a final message or email me at hillary.hawkes@gmail.com. you may also contact me on aim as snid15 (i won't be on much anymore). Thank you, good bye and good luck.

again copied from jessica...the answers to my last post

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 23:50:39 GMT

Here are the answers to my game in the last post, only read once you have finished filling out what you think are the correct answers...thanks!

Type your cut contents here. 1. Ron Weasley
2. Hermione Granger
3. Prince Caspien
4. Aslan
5. Clark
6. Chloe
7. Rogue
8. Diddy Kong
9. Kelso
10. Pacey
11. Piper
12. Holly
13. Kane
14. Flounder
15. Mary Jane
16. Donatello
17. Randy
18. No Characters, but my love language is quality time...
19. Chelsea
20. Zach

copied this game from jessica...its interesting

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 23:42:34 GMT

1. Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/etc. that you've had an obsessive fannish love of at some time in your life.
2. Have your friends list guess your favourite character from each item.

1. Harry Potter Movies
2. Harry Potter Books
3. Chronicles of Narnia Books
4. Lion, Witch, and The Wardrobe Movie
5. Love Comes Softly
6. Left Behind
7. X-Men Movies
8. Donkey Konga
9. That 70s Show
10. Dawson's Creek
11. Charmed
12. What I Like About You
13. Blade Trinity
14. The Little Mermaid
15. Spiderman Movies
16. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
17. Scream Trilogy
18. The Five Love Languages
19. That's So Raven
20. Saved by the Bell

Tonight

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 15:45:18 GMT

please pray for us as tonight we are going to a foster parent orientation meeting. we feel like our mission is to open our home to children in need. tonight we will be starting our first major steps on this journey and could really use some encouragement. Right now we feel like there is a child in the foster program that is desperately seeking Jesus, so we feel like we will be getting a foster child right away. Our meeting is tonight at 6pm and I can't wait!!!

this one's for Tere!

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 01:13:13 GMT

You Passed 8th Grade Spanish

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Spanish?

holy crap this is long...

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 17:21:53 GMT

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (thats basically all i do besides play on the internet and clean my house...kinda pathetic)	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana. (I never have and I never intend to, drugs are not my thing.)
✓ I've watched porn movies. (I have been in a room when the person in the next room was watching them and i saw a foot, but that was all...)	✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (No, there is one in my minivan though, but its for emergencies, I guess...)

* * * * *

✓ I have broken someone's bones. (Not sure how I would do that, I am pretty weak, i suppose i could if i sate on them though...)	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	✓ I hate the rain. (actually i don't mind it. Sometimes it is nice to even have a nice thunderstorm...I hate the rain though if we are driving in it.)
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	✓ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi. (I don't really like it...)	✓ I talk really, really fast. (not normally, but there have been times...)	✓ I have fresh breath in the morning. (only after i brush my teeth, who wakes up with fresh breath? if you do then please tell me what toothpaste you use?)
✓ I have long hair. (It is long for me, but not for a normal person, i am growing it longer though)	✓ I have lost money in Las Vegas. (never been there :-()	✓ I have at least one sibling.
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S. (nope)	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	✓ I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look. (no way, i hate everything about the way that i look)	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (i don't have any good friends to lie too...)	✓ I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	✓ I think prostitution should be legalized. (nope)	✓ I slept with a roommate. (does my husband count as a roommate? cause if not, then no way!!)
✓ I have a hidden talent. (i don't think i have any talents, hidden or not)	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (yeah, right)	✓ I have a lot of friends. (oh for sure....not even close, i have the opposite of a lot, like negative, instead of none...lol)
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (unless they include family members then no...)	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	✓ I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (why where pants when you can wear skirts!!!)
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (no, i love my mom, she is my best friend, other then brady anyways...)
✓ I have a mobile phone.	✓ I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (i have not drank in the last 6 months let alone passed out drunk.)	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (carreer wise that is very true, but i want to be a wife and mommy for sure!!!!!!!!)	✓ I want to have children in the future. (not in the future, NOW!!!!)
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	✓ I've called the cops on a friend before. (again with the friend questions, don't have any to call the cops on)	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex. (no, brady is the only person i talk to so, i would say that is not true)	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. (not when brady is home and we turn off the computer at night)
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	✓ I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
✓ I own the "South Park" movie. (i downloaded a song from it once, but i have never seen it)	✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music. (one song)
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	✓ I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (since i have no career that wouldn't work out.)
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (i think halloween is awesome because i love to be scared)	✓ I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment.
✓ I'm obsessed with guys. (just one...brady hawkes!)	✓ Democrat. (sorry, I believe in God and the reason that America was created!)	✓ Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am. (i know...)	✓ I am punk rockish. (i used to be, but now i just look like a plumpy house wife)	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (brady is 3 weeks younger then me...)
✓ I study for tests most of the time.	✓ I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. (how do you tie shoelaces differently?)	✓ I can work on a car. (yeah, with all of my skills)
✓ I love my job(s). (if i had one, i do love being a wife though)	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now. (i am too fat, but other than that, yes that is true)	✓ I have more than just my ears pierced. (nope)
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	✓ I have jumped off a bridge. (nope)	✓ I love sea turtles.
✓ I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. (i don't know if i even own makeup)	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument. (i can read music, but i was always last chair in band...)
✓ I hate office jobs. (i actually loved working at dow and should have never left, so i would say that i don't hate office jobs)	✓ I went to college out of state. (i go to school online now, but it is a michigan college still)	✓ I am adopted. (by my step-dad, in his heart, but not legally)
✓ I am a pyro.	✓ I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people. (i used too, but i don't anymore!)	✓ I adore bright colours.	✓ I usually like covers better than originals. (not true...)
✓ I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. (why would i hate them?)	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	✓ I can't whistle. (i can actually)
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in. (not anymore)	✓ I talk in my sleep. (no, but brady does and it scares me)
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	✓ I wear a toe ring. (i used too, but i don't anymore for some reason)
✓ I have a tattoo. (i have one in mind, but it is not on my body yet...)	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (i don't work, so...)	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. (i am spiritual, but in a totally christian way! i don't hug trees...)	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. (no way)	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. (hate wine)	✓ I'm an artist. (yeah right, and da vinci was not)	✓ I am ambidextrous. (working on it)
✓ I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (only one and his name is brady)	✓ If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony. (no, i am too fat for that)	✓ I have terrible teeth.
✓ I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	✓ I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
✓ I have lived in either three different states or countries. (never even been to three different countries...)	✓ I am extremely flexible. (yeah, sure, i get leg cramps in my sleep...)	✓ I love hugs more than kisses. (what? who loves hugs more than kisses?)
✓ I want to own my own business.	✓ I smoke. (i think smoking is disgusting. when i turned 18 i did it on and off and i will never do it again...my neice has many weird illnesses because of smoking (she is only five and has black lungs))	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	✓ I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons. (i have shot a gun one time)
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. (dikey?)	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone. (well then i would go insane cause i am alone every day all day)	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	✓ I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (who does that?)
✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole.	✓ I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent. (never left this one...)	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (i kinda wish the opposite actually...he kinda did just disappear)	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (i am not good at anything so that doesn't work)
✓ I am a Libertarian. (what the heck is that?)	✓ I can speak more than one language. (only a little spanish)	✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV. (i used to be like that, but not anymore)	✓ I like reading fact more than fiction. (eww...)	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
✓ I have no piercings. (my ears, but thats it)	✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. (weird, people actually do that?)	✓ I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried. (huh? i am a girl, and that is the way God made me, why would i cry about that?)
✓ I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night. (no, my dad always got me on christmas eve and my mom on christmas morning)	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	✓ I like most animals better than most people.
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles. (we would like to start we have a SNES and Genesis, but they are at my mom's house)	✓ The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver. (no, i would love to work out, i am just to lazy)	✓ I have hit someone with a dead fish. (yuck)
✓ I am compulsively honest. (no, unfortunately not)	✓ I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired. (i don't know what that is)	✓ I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. (no)
✓ I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. (definately not God made me a Girl and that is how i am going to stay)	✓ I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders. (definately not, God made me a girl, so therefore, I like boys and that is it!)	✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to. (not because i forget to, just cause i don't want to)
✓ I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on. (nope)	✓ I dislike milk. (it makes me sick if i have too much, but i don't dislike it)	✓ I obsessively wash my hands. (not obsessively)
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.	✓ Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
✓ Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	✓ I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. (no, i am still learning html)	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
✓ I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (nope)	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	✓ I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won. (scary)
✓ I do not 'get' most comedy acts. (i get it, i just don't think that it nessesary for them to say the F word all the time)	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing. (i don't think they are money-greedy, i think they are slutty though)	✓ I don't like to chew gum. (sometimes i don't cause it hurts my wisdom teeth, but i like to normally)
✓ I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it. (no way, i hate history)	✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (dude, where's my car?)	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	✓ I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly. (oh yes, me and my nerd clan...lol...never played it)	✓ I love to sing.
✓ I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up. (been there, done that, not a good place when you want to have sex with your husband)	✓ I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (with God nothing is impossible, so we will keep trying til the day we die!)
✓ I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human. (sick)	✓ I've gone skinny-dipping. (can't say i have)	✓ I've performed in three plays.
✓ I enjoy burritos.	✓ I'm Irish and loving it.	✓ I have a thing for redheads. (i used to ;-))
✓ I am a twin! (i always thought that would be cool, but now i am not so sure...)	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	✓ Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (no, this isn't true about me)
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself. (if i needed more time to myself then i would go insane...)	✓ I wish I was more open-minded.	✓ I hope that I go really prematurely grey. (no way!!! but brady is...haha)
✓ I download songs from the internet.	✓ I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. (what?)	✓ I say random things to freak people out. (used to)
✓ I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note. (huh?)	✓ I love playing Truth or Dare.	✓ I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it. (whatever, if i am listening to slow music, then it must be so i can sing to it...)
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone. (God helps me remember i am not a lone...)	✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems. (don't play sports...)	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
✓ I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	✓ I can only hate someone that I love.	✓ I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks. (nope)

so anyways...things are fine...

i'm giving up slowly

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 16:02:59 GMT

ever have a really bad day then have like three people just completely reaffirm what you are feeling? that was my day yesterday...i was feeling kinda down because i still don't know anyone and i feel like my family is so far away and my brother calls and starts calling me a bunch of mean names. then someone denied my friend request on myspace (this doesn't really mean much today, but when you are having a bad day it just makes things worse.) to top it all off, my mother-in-law stopped by and acted like she was mad about something...i just don't know what to do anymore...i guess i just go pick some raspberries and make raspberry jam...the end

by mrs. hawkes

Jesus Take the Wheel!

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 18:22:58 GMT

Ok, I do not like country music at all, but today I was doing my devotions and the christian music station was on and they played a song by Carrie Underwood, called "Jesus Take the Wheel". I wasn't a fan of the music, but the message and the lyrics were amazing. I was totally broken from this song. Praise God! How weird is it that hearing the words, "jesus take the wheel" could be exactly what I needed to hear from God today. I am a total control freak and I need to let go and let God in on the control! Yay God!
Love, Hillary

"Stranded at the drive-in, branded 'what a fool', what will they say monday at school"

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 14:34:36 GMT

Great song, I am considering watching Grease today, but I have Taylor, so I will have to wait til she goes home. We were supposed to go to the beach today, but I am not sure if I am in the mood to go or not. Last night Brady and I went to the drive-in movies. Who knew that there still were drive-ins in michigan!?!?! I was excited to go and it was a blast. You get to see more movies then one for the price of one and you get to hang out in the comfort of your own vechicle. We saw part of over the hedge and all of Nacho Libre, they were both ok, but it was still fun! Well thats all that I have to say for now, I am almost done with school til grad school and I can't wait! Hopefully i will update again soon! Love, Hillary

much better

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 22:34:02 GMT

of course, we are doing much better now then in my last post. We are leaving for florida in 10 days!!!! I can't wait. I love brady and i love our home and our babies (zoey and link) and everything! life is good, God is GREAT! we went to frontline church lastnight in ann arbor and it rocked, i loved it!! seriously, I would love to start going there all of the time. we also went to the casino last night, mgm grand in detroit, and we lost, but we learned that we live 40 minutes from detroit. I like living close to big cities like, lansing, ann arbor, and detroit (about an hour from lansing, and 10 minutes to ann arbor). I would like to invite everyone to come see our house! This summer I think it would be cool to have a party on the beach (we live by like 7 or 8 lakes), so I would like to invite anyone who wants to come see our house and come to a beach party at independence lake in whitmore lake, michigan to leave me a note here and let me know. i think that it is going to be in the middle of the summer, like July, but it all depends on when everyone is available. love to everyone! have a great day!

Tough Times

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 00:24:04 GMT

We have been screwed over by our bank and a insurance company. Right now all we can afford is the food that is already in our home, last week we had more money then we can spend and now we are just suckers. We will both be gettin paid on the same day from now on though and that will really help out. I just want to go out and do something...money needs to be saved for Florida though, we leave the 16th of March!!!!! One Month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace...have a great weekend!

Saturdays when Brady Works

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 17:39:23 GMT

Wow, I need a weekend job. When I do not have Zachary I am BORED. Today I was able to get my homework done by noon, that is insane. Brady is at work until 6 tonight, but then is going to a U of M hockey game. I don't have anything to do as ususual because I do not know anyone but Brady's family. So Brady found out that I was bored and called his mom and asked her to take me to a movie. Unfortunately for me, she already had plans with my neice. Now though, I think that plans have changed and I might be going out with Brady's mom and sisters. We did this last year and it was a lot of fun, so I think that would be cool if we could do that. So, I really need to find some people that live in the Ann Arbor Area that do not attend the U of M. I think that I will be going to the U of M in a few years, but I will be taking online classes again. You never know though, I might decide to take a few campus classes here and there. I still haven't decided if I am going to go there for my master's or not because I would feel like a traitor, but oh well, its all good. Anyways...I am bored...there is nothing on tv...i should clean my house, but don't want to...wow...i could make this go on forever with whatever comes into my mind...but I won't...i don't want to make you as bored as I am...have a good day...peace out...your friend...mrs...hillary...hawkes

what i just put in my xanga page, cause i haven't updated either in a long time...

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 21:19:07 GMT

So, I have some random thoughts today that I wanted to get out of my head and I thought, why not share with the rest of the world? Anyways, if you have any thoughts on my thoughts or any random thoughts please feel free to share them with me!

Wow, finding a church is tough. We really having been trying hard enough, but we are feeling a strong pull to an independent church in Ann Arbor. They give free dinner to homeless people before their Sunday service (which is in the evening, so you don't have to wake up early), which I think is cool and I would really like to help out with that. Brady doesn't seemed worried at all about finding a church, but he is the type of person that knows without a doubt that God has the situation under control. I know that God will take care of it, I am just impatient and I tend to be a control freak. I just really need a church because I really need a friend. It is so hard to make friends, even when you live within 50 feet of someone else's home. Yes, I said it, our house is only located about 50 feet from the houses on both sides of us. We don't have much room, but that is not a big deal because it is our house. Anyways, I am kind of making friends with the neighbors, but they are big partiers and obviously I am not really into that scene. I tried to fit in with people like that before, but that was totally wrong and I will never do it again. Back to the church situation, I really want to find a place where I can get involved and make some good christian friends. I know that we are supposed to have non christian friends also and I do kind of have that, but I just feel like I would have a lot more in common with christians.

Alright, so we have health insurance and a pretty good sized bank account and we own a house. Not everything is perfect though, everyone keeps asking us when we are going to reproduce. We both want to have a baby, its just that I don't think that we can. We are going to Florida in April and when we get back we plan on going to the doctor to see if we are ready for something like a baby. I really feel though that God would like us to take in a foster child, but I have felt that God wanted me to be a foster parent for a long time. I guess only God knows what will happen next in our lives as far as children go, so we will see. For now I am happy watching Zach at our house and playing with our neices and nephew.

I think I may have some lingering depression, so pray for my healing there, please. Sometimes I just cry for no reason and I feel like the walls are closing in. I am alone most of the time, so I just get sad at times and feel like I am a loser. I know though that I am not a loser, I am just a student that also happens to be a homemaker. I don't know though, it is hard to be a homemaker without any children, but I think that Zoey, our dog, Link, our cat, and Zach, the kid I babysit for, are a lot to handle without children around.

I praise God everyday for all of the blessings that he has given me. I have a wonderful husband, that I take for granted, a wonderful minivan, that I think has kind of made me look at my dad in a whole new light, a great house, it isn't much, but it has our names on the ownership line, two perfect pets, they stink, but they are lovey, and last but definately not least my relationship with Jesus Christ, I really take advantage of this, but it is what has given me all of the above..

Babies

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 20:10:30 GMT

This is Zoey, our dog, and Link, our cat. I love having them here with us, they are so sweet and they are getting along well. The picture is a little blurred though because they wouldn't hold still to get their pictures taken.

UPDATED

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 16:21:04 GMT

so christmas was good, brady let me get my nails done! I got lots of presents, but we gave some really good ones this year and of that I was really proud. We didn't make it to church on Christmas Eve or Christmas day because of the crazy scheduale that we had to follow. Basically we did a LOT of driving. It was fun though and good to see everyone. I really miss my family, so I am glad now that we did not move out of state because at least now we are close enough to drive for a few hours to go see everyone. We still have one more Christmas to go with my dad's family and that is on Jan. 1, hopefully Brady doesn't have to work, I don't want to have to drive there on my own. I really hope though, that my dad does not get us anything, because he already gave us the van, but I have a feeling he is going to. I need to get off my butt right now though and start getting this house ready for our New Year's eve Bash (you are invited, but you won't come anyways and there are only going to be a few of brady's friends and that is all). I have to babysit on the 29th and 30th. I know that babysitting is for teenage girls, but I enjoy it and it is a good way for me to make some spending money. Alright, I have babbled on enough. Have a good day everyone and if I am not on before, Happy New Year!

Christmas in 2 days!`

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 00:08:28 GMT

Christmas is going to be hectic this year, but don't forget what it is all about, Jesus!!!!

http://www.reuters.hu/card_dom/index_content.html This link is not about christmas, but it is cute, so go to it and watch it. Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!!!!

Merry Christmas!

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 17:12:22 GMT

I thought this adorable picture of my cousin's daughter, Kamryn would get everyone in the holiday spirit! Have a wonderful Christmas!!!!

House Keeper

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 16:40:28 GMT

Yesterday Brady called me his, "little housekeeper." I don't know why that hurt my feelings so much, but it did. I know he didn't mean anything bad by it, in fact, I know that he meant to say "homemaker", but it just came out wrong and it hurts. Anyways, I have been laying on the couch all morning eating those mini donuts, so I better not eat anything else today. I love our couch, but it makes me want to just rest all of the time and that is really not good. I think that I am going to get off soon though and get my painting clothes on so that I can go paint. Talk to you all later! Love, Hillary

almost moved in

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 00:53:59 GMT

i have spent all day cleaning the kitchen and taking out and washing all of my dishes. I don't think that the washer and dryer work, but oh well, we can always get new ones. We bought a couch yesterday and it feels like sitting on a cloud, it is so awesome. I should be getting back to my cleaning, but I keep playing around and downloading stuff. Anways I am going now...if you want to see our new place let me know when you want to come down and I will either set up a party or make dinner.

Love, Hillary

I truly do heart NY

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 22:15:47 GMT

I always wanted to go to NYC, in fact, I always wanted to live there. While now that I have been there, I really do love it, but being who I am I know I couldn't live there. I love Broadway! I went to see Rent, the movie, we didn't have time to go to a show in NY, but it still rocked. Anyways, I loved that movie!!! I am totally going to try to get into a theatre club and try to get back into acting or at least the behind the scenes stuff...what can I say, its my passion! Hopefully, too, we will find a church with a cool drama club or something...peace out! I heart NYC!!!!!

A special thanks to my dad for allowing me to come out and visit him for Thanksgiving!

HELP!!!!

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 22:39:36 GMT

i don't know what to do...we just bought a house and don't have nay money, but i have the opportunity to go to New Jersey to see my dad and siblings for Thanksgiving...what should I do?!?!?! time to decide is quickly ticking away...I have like 6 hours to decide. Here's the thing, I want to stay here and get the keys for our new place and start painting and cleaning, but I also want to go there because I don't know when the next time I will see my siblings is (it could be quite a while). also though, i already spent way over 300 bucks today paying bills, so we won't have much money until Brady gets paid again in another week........silly adult decisions...

A test

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 22:45:31 GMT

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

Im on a diet...I think I have already lost weight...hopefully I can stick with it...wish me luck!

the honest truth...the story of my life since high school

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 02:24:59 GMT

I haven't updated in quite a while. When I was in high school I became depressed in my junior year and completely screwed up my social life through stupidity. Finally during the middle of my senior year I got help, but it had been too late to make up with my friends and I was too insecure to make new ones. So I started to date A LOT, and eventually just dated one guy at a time (for awhile I was dating 4 guys at once). Well I was stupid, insecure, and lonely, so I gave "it" up. I have felt awful since then that I did such a horrible wrong against God and my body. Again the depression set in, so I had to start with anti-depressents. Next I met Brady, he made me feel so wonderful and yet I still was very scared. So I started spending every waking minute with Brady and when I started at Michigan State I could not focus on school work and I really decided that I hated school. I moved back to Merrill, the town that I have always thought that I loathed, and started at Baker College. I was happy and really started to gain weight, so I stopped taking the anti-depressents. Over the summer of 2004 Brady and I decided to get married, so we got married in September. Then I started another semester at Baker. Brady and I didn't have a lot of money and I started to become depressed again. I knew I was happy to be with the man that I loved, but there was something missing. I started to blame my depression on Brady because of him I had left my dream at MSU and moved back to Merrill to go to a community college. I felt really low. If I wouldn't have had Brady I don't know what would have happened to me. My depression kept on and I changed my major three times in one school year. Brady and I started really getting involved in a new church and centering our marriage on Christ and his love and my depression started to leave. Once we were really doing well we had some really bad stuff happen to us and we knew it was because the devil did not want to see us do well. So we have continued to strive for Christ and now he is really blessing us. I am doing wonderful in school and I am almost caught back up (I have switched completely to online classes and i totally love it), we got a really nice van from my dad for free, and Brady has a full time job with salary, benefits, commission, and a retirement. I am not working currently, but it is nice to have extra time to focus on school. We now live in Pinckney, MI with Brady's parents. I really get lonely and homesick, a lot, but I am no longer depressed and we are doing well spiritually. We need prayer though because we don't have a church down here yet and we don't want to live with his parents anymore, plus I need a job. Anyways, back to my truth, I started writing this story because I am really lonely, I don't want any sympathy, I guess I am just bored. Its hard being so far from everyone that has always been important to me. I don't have any friends down here yet and I don't think that I will get any until I get a job and we find a church. I was selling Avon, but I really can't anymore because I don't have any customers here yet. I am not depressed anymore, I am very happy, but I just can't believe I miss Merrill this much. I never talk to my parents and now that Christmas is getting close I don't know if I will be able to celbrate it with them. I didn't think that Ann Arbor would be that far away, but it is so different. I know that things will look up though, soon.

I am sorry that all I did was complain, but I guess it doesn't really matter though, because I don't think anyone reads this anyways. Please feel free to comment or add some stuff if you were involved anywhere in there, I am in a reminiscent (sp?) mood.

I know its not Halloween yet, but....

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 17:44:36 GMT